Covers

Kind of sad when you know the person you love is hurting the thing that you treasured the most. I know what i am suppose to do but i just dont want it. Not like this. From 10pm, my brain had been keep on instructing this to me. However, i am procastinating. Hoping there might be a chance for you to turn back and treasure it.Perhaps you might not... The test i gave you, you never passed. I dont think you will ever come back.What am i afraid of?? I got nothing to lose. The date will be set ^^ Its time.

Solitary

Somethings might not be as worst as you thought. All you have is to switch. For example, being alone.

To me, being alone is the best time of the day for me. You get to sink in your own world that everything is in the rightful place, perfect. The world that you dreamt every day and night that wont come true at all. Even i know it just a temporary happiness and it burst like a bubble in the next second when i turn back to reality, i wan it. At least there's something right? Better than nothing. Be contented with your life if not, you're not gonna be happy.Be happy with whatever you have, be grateful. Kay i am going out of point. Hahas. Being alone doesnt = to lonely at all. I kind of forget how does lonely felt. Maybe only losing the sense of belonging only... I dont know... Haha. I love being alone nowdays. Dont wanna face the ugly world... Disappointment... Drifting... hahas Pathetic huh? Haha. Laughing myself. How pathetic? LOL kay. i am going insane.

You know how much i loved TDE. Yet you're helping her? Or should i say helped her? I dont know... It disappoints me and it set me off. All u say is you dont know, you forgot. I wonder if its true... I wan to believe is true. Yeah, i trust you.

MacDonald

A song i wanna share with a you guys about someone ... It fully describe how i feel so yeah.. haha


I still remember the look on your face
Live through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered for just us to know
You told me you loved me so why did you go away, away

I do recall now the smell of the rain
Fresh on the pavement, I ran off the plane
That July 9th the beat of your heart
It jumps through your shirt, I can still feel your arms

But now I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss


Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
I do remember the swing of your step
The life of the party, you're showing off again
And I roll my eyes and then you pulled me in
I'm not much for dancing but for you did

Because I loved your handshake, meeting my father
I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you'd kiss me when I was in the middle of saying something
There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions

And I'll go, sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss

Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips, ohh

So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I'll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe
And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are
Hope it's nice where you are

And I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you, you wish you had stayed
We can plan for a change in weather and time
I never planned on you changing your mind

So, I'll go, sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss
I never thought we'd ever last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
Just like our last kiss, forever the name on my lips
Forever the name on my lips, just like our last

[ From : http://www.elyrics.net/read/t/taylor-swift-lyrics/last-kiss-lyrics.html ]

Jobs

There's always a mixture of good and bad people in your life. Dont complaint if you have too much bad people. You must thank this people. These are the people who let you grow up. They gave you waves and wall to fight through. They're the one who trained you to be strong. Be thankful.
Dont take granted for the good people. People comes and goes and i believe you dont them to go. So please, treasure them. They are one of a kind so if you lose it, that's it.

Be grateful in your life man. You're lucky.

Leak

Everyone says this " i finally know your true face ". People often say this to a person when he/she gets mad or angry or wad and talk a mouthful of vulgars. It doesnt means that when people show their ugly side, it is their true colours. They just want to protect themselves so they turn into a poccupine. They want scare and chase people away who hurt them. If everyone's true colours are their ugly bad side, they wont be anymore good people anymore.

Some people get happiness by bullying other people. While some other people can get happiness by just crapping about the grass, sun or a piece of bread. How easy? The price for the happiness by bullying other people comes to expensive. That's kind of happiness mixed with evil in it. What's so nice about seeing other people being sad or irritated? Why do you want people to hate you? I dont get it. You got everything she wants. She lets you get in the way and what more you want? Her to die? I pity this people. They need to think of ways on how to make people sad in order to make themselves happy. They're just wasting their time and life. Seriously, their life is so not meaningful. Whole day killing their brain cells on how to bully people instead of thinking of some crap and joke about it. This kind of people dont know what happiness really is. They like to screw people's life up and one day, i believe, you will get your karma.

People show care doesnt means that they're busybody. Although majority of people are really busybody but there are people who is really wanna help. These people cant stand their love ones being sad or angry because of someone. They knew it was wrong to scold the opposite without any reasons or evidence. They dont want to be unreasonable. Hence, they want to straighten things out. If its the love one wrong, they will scold them because they wants him or she to become good, to change, to face the truth. If its another side wrong, they will also scold them because it was really their fault and also justice for the love one. They spend their time and efforts to help your guys straighten things out is really loving you guys. If it others, they wouldnt even set their eyes on it. But it was you. You're not just somebody. You're someone. That's why they want to help to solve your problem. Think of why they started it out at the 1st place and you will understand.

Thanks for reading! Love ya guys <3

Drip.

They used to be so lovey dovey yet now they are argueing like mad. People do change. Or juz that they hide their unshown ugly side. Misunderstandings spark off everything. They dont understand hence they make their own assumption. They believe they're the rights one. Once they believe it strongly, they wont absorb in anything that opposites that idea.That's how people lost trust and faith.

Maybe you're right. Maybe i am really avoiding you.. I dont know. I'm afriad that seeing you i will be sad. Everytime i see you, i will literally fly to heaven. A kind of happiness that i dont know how to put in words. A feeling like everything in the world was in the right place. However after that, i will be all alone again. I will have to face all the troubles again. The troubles that might cause losing you. I'm scared. The more happiness i get from you, the more sadness i will get after you leave. I'm really very afraid of losing you... Please stop repeating the history again. I dont know how much I can take in.
Again,i dont know what to do. If i get far away from you just to protect myself from the sadness of ur leaving, the chances of you leaving me will be higher. If i gamble it, the chances of you leaving will be lower. But still, there's risk. Well, this life. Accept it girl.
I only got 1 life and i dont want waste it. I dont want any regretts or what. At least i tried right? Just like last time. I need to try. The very least try. Even the risk are high, i still wants bcoz i love you.
Look, i choose to believe so please dont disappoints me... The wall infront of me is called 'scare'. Working hard on breaking it.

Thanks for reading! Love ya guys <3

Correction Tape

Step out and think girl. You're in the mess, just like tangled rope. You gotta step out and see, then find the right way to untie it.

What's the situation? He loves her. She loves him. You love him. You're the one who's tying down, unable to let him fly high to pursue his own happiness. Get it? 

Black Cloth

People are blind with hatred. Once you hate her, everything she does will irritates you. Even it doesnt relates to you at all, you will dig out some little flaws about her and exaggerate it. When she's right, you will switch it and make her wrong. When she didnt did anything wrong, you spread things that she did the wrong, making everyone think that she's bad and you're right. Brainwash. Now, people who dont even come in contact wif her hates her too.

The source of everything nails down to Misunderstandings.

She trusted you. She told you every secrets that she have. Yet you spread it. Its already very bad about spreading it but she forgives you. But you twisted the truth. This is unforgiven. Unless you stop.

Look, what's the point of hating? It will only waste your time on people who doesnt worth it. You only got ONE life so please make use of it by loving people. By love, you will care and share with others. It will makes you a much more better person. Please, change.

Thanks for reading! Love ya guys <3

Bull Eye

When a person truly stop loving a person, he will not care you at all. He will stop worrying if you never reply his text. He will stop wondering what were you doing at this very moment. When you share your problems with him, he will say " not my problem ". Even when you told him you're having a major headache or fever at this moment, he would act as if you're fine. He wont ask you to go rest or see a doctor. He dont care at all. He never spare a thought for you. He knew doing this was very wrong and disadvantage to you, yet he continued just for his own happiness. When you share your happiness, he wont feel it. He will find it boring and switch to his favourite topic which you're uncomfortable with. Everytime he say he loves you, it might seems real in the past. But now, i knew, deep inside, these are words just to trick me.

Even though you still dont know yet, I will wait .

Candidates.

I guess i didnt blog for too long and i forgot how to blog le. LOL

Major stuff this week : SYF

19th April was our compeition day and we didnt did our best so i was kind of disappointed. I screwed up at the start of the dance. I cant hear the knockings so i was kind of lost.

While i was dancing on the stage, memories flow through me. Especially those trainings during December. Everything, flow through my mind like a current. It happened so fast that i hadnt realise it ended. Once Clarrise said "go", i knew everything had ended. It was done. This is it. Whatever we had shown on stage, that's it. Everything is done. All the sweats that we had flowed, all the hardwork we had put in, it had all goes down to that 6minutes of Dance. 6months for juz 6minutes of Dance on that Stage.
GOLD.
Our efforts was not wasted :)

21st April, the release of the results. I was bouncing up and down for the whole daaay... Almost tricked by the sad face that Clarrise and Juliana put on and those words that Emily and Sandy said. KAY,I'M STUPID. Bcoz of that i thought we got a Bronze or worst, COP. I cant get my hopes to high coz i know i will fall heavy. When Clarrise and Michelle screamed " We got GOLD !!" i screamed my heart out for 3secs and then tears of joy streamed down my face. 1st time in my life, i felt satisfaction. I cant describe how happy i was at that moment. I dont know should i cry or laugh so i kind of did both at the same time. Laughing + crying = Not a easy job. I cried bcoz... idk... haha. But i understand why during 2009, after the released of the SYF results, the seniors cried so hard. Becoz they know they had put in a lot of efforts juz for this SYF. They sacrificed a lot... They almost lost someone important bcoz of this... But it was worth it. Now i feel like we worked so hard juz for that award O.O
Hmmm... SYF... It pulled TDE together. It gave us obstacles to let us grow up. To learn to take care of ourselves and others. The award is juz a target for us. To make us strong enough for all the obstacles. To reward us after all the hardwork.
Well, we got something that's more than Gold. Friendship. Teamspirit. Love.

Credits to LaoShi Seniors and all the dancers. Without you guys, we dont have today. Love TDE for eternity <3