Be next to ya

Tonight, once again, i missed the times that we spent tgt on the phone. How we would sneak under our blanket and talk overnight, till u or me fall asleep, or being discovered. Every night was so fun, risking everything just want to talk to you, and then you will share some super cold jokes me that make me shiver in the warm blankets. My mom would always suspect what was i doing in my blankets when she saw the vibrating of my body. Sometime, it would be so fun that i didnt watch how loud i sounded and in the end, woke my mom up. I miss how we start and end the night. The night was the most amazing time for us. Now, without you, the night is the most horrible thing to me.
Things were pretty normal when u were here. Everyone seems so perfect, angel like. Once you left, my whole world turn upside down. Everyone began to change their angel looks to a horrible demons. Things werent as simple as it seems anymore. Life's harder and tougher. More and more challenges ahead, afraid without you being at my side. Cant seem to trust anyone with my all. Its either to protect them or prevent things from getting worst, or i knew, telling you wont do any good or it will make it worst. I dont know... Telling her, she will bash you up. Telling her, she wont do anything which is pointless for telling. All i have is Milky.However, Milky cant be trusted anymore. Rules were set and i gotta follow. Seems like here's the only way. Perhaps you might to lazy to read or maybe cant be bothered anymore. I can feel that you dont care anymore? I dont know. That's what my feelings told me. What your actions told me. but deep inside i wan to believe you still care about me? right? Hope so... A hope is always a hope.