Hey people ! its such a long time and i bet no one would be reading this blog now but I dont care :D
Over this holiday, I met Clean monster and he emphasized on my appearance. Yes, he's right. I need a complete change of wardrobe before school starts. People judge you by appearance, for the 1st impression. If your appearance doesnt appeals to them, no way they gonna start a conversation with you. People look at you 1st, the way you dress, your body language, expressions... That's what basically form up the 1st impression right? If you pass it, you guys can become friends :D I'm not sure whether I'm right or it just doesnt applies to everyone. But at least that something i can start with right??
I want to be a very sociable person. I dont want to be the person who sits at the corner, minding their own business, dreaming of their own little fantasy. I dont want to stay in my own world anymore, I want to enter other people's world too and maybe have some fun. Me too, want people to come and join my world. But i dont know how. I dont really know how to make friends. My bestfriends are usually the outcasted people in the class, LiJing and Anna. Not much people likes them, i think... But well, now i have to meet a whole new set of people in Poly now but i just dont know how to get along with them, as if i already know who they are already... huh.Yes, i can be friendly at the start but i dont know how to continue after that. I dont know how to talk. I dont know what to talk. I dont know how to joke around. I dont know a lot of things.
SO HERE COME BAOYUDI :D a small little introduction about him! I knew him through shopnsave. It was during the CNY period when SNS need extra people to help out with the CNY stocks. My duty was to watch over the abalones in the morning and baoyudi was to watch them in the night :) so it was quite an interesting encounter i suppose haha He's quite a smart person and talented with musical instruments. I like him. He's someone i wanted to be. Haha
I'm super glad that he came in to my life. He taught me a lot of things to. He's further explaining stuff of what Clean Monster taught me. Now i know why i dont know how to communicate with people is because i'm lack of knowledge. Since you and that person doesnt have a common topic to talk about nor a common interest, there's nothing that can be shared. Even there's no common topic, well, at least you're good at something and that you can talk about for a long time. Sharing your knowledge with other people and they will do that the same to you. Isnt this how you expand ur knowledge? Through people... Its better than the net and videos for me.... :/ And then further emphasis on my appearance that I have to start wearing something more girlish? Something to to show off (is that the right word?) that i got, those curves and all... Other than just baggy t-shirts, maybe something nicer tight fitting... You have to look good in order to get attention right? Then people will think 'oh hey she looks nice. I wonder where she bought her clothes... Maybe i shall ask her! ' and all these stuff. I mean, that's a way to start a conversation right? :D
Gosh. I'm moving slow. but i'm not giving up. To the person i want to be !!
Sunday, March 24, 2013
Saturday, February 16, 2013
Endless of Searching
一只舞蹈， 最重要的是生命力。
Well, this place is mostly dead so I dont think anyone would read it... But oh well
4months of holiday had gone and I think i really spent well my holiday. First was prom and chalet. Played for awhile and find it meaningless again. But i found an awesome friend, who is becoming a stranger again. GongCha is up next and is fun ! Making drinks and everything, finally know how all bubbleteas really work. No wonder sometime it take so long, because there's newbie like me who always very lost. AHA came in and it is something that i would never forget. Knew awesome people like Maycia and Valerie ! Both of them are amazing and talented people. And of course Joanna, Raynice and loads of people haha And then this person just suddenly pop up in my life to make such a big change, then left. WTF...
If you're reading this clean monster, I do miss you and I'm super grateful for all the things that you taught me. I will never ever forget you and the lessons, lectures. You really help me to become a person i wants. Even though i may not be producing gd results, I will never stop trying. A friend that i wish everybody has, a guardian angel. Thank you.
Then here comes the results and posting of schools. USS with my awesome girls! It was really super fun and I wont ever have the thought of jumping off any building. Its just too freaking scary. Shall try other ways to die. NAH KIDDING. Then CNY and shopnsave. Eventful uhh... Haha :P Hope more things would happen.. :D
Stay tune peeps! :)
Well, this place is mostly dead so I dont think anyone would read it... But oh well
4months of holiday had gone and I think i really spent well my holiday. First was prom and chalet. Played for awhile and find it meaningless again. But i found an awesome friend, who is becoming a stranger again. GongCha is up next and is fun ! Making drinks and everything, finally know how all bubbleteas really work. No wonder sometime it take so long, because there's newbie like me who always very lost. AHA came in and it is something that i would never forget. Knew awesome people like Maycia and Valerie ! Both of them are amazing and talented people. And of course Joanna, Raynice and loads of people haha And then this person just suddenly pop up in my life to make such a big change, then left. WTF...
If you're reading this clean monster, I do miss you and I'm super grateful for all the things that you taught me. I will never ever forget you and the lessons, lectures. You really help me to become a person i wants. Even though i may not be producing gd results, I will never stop trying. A friend that i wish everybody has, a guardian angel. Thank you.
Then here comes the results and posting of schools. USS with my awesome girls! It was really super fun and I wont ever have the thought of jumping off any building. Its just too freaking scary. Shall try other ways to die. NAH KIDDING. Then CNY and shopnsave. Eventful uhh... Haha :P Hope more things would happen.. :D
Stay tune peeps! :)
Sunday, September 30, 2012
In A Rush
O level is just within 3 weeks and i am not doing enough. The efforts that i put in is no match to the otheres. I know that i am better than that, i could do better than that but theres's so much distraction that i couldnt hold myself anymore. Self-discipline! Must discipline myself... but... i dont know what i want anymore. I am lost. I need you to guide me, lead me, motivate me. You are my driving foce, my motivation. But now, you're gone and i am all left is a broken heart. I need you in a rush.
Friday, December 9, 2011
No more fairytales.
Maybe this is better .
Life's short. Things might not always go as you want. But what can you do? There's always something that you cant do anything wif it. Look at what you have and not what you dont have. Be contented.
I know this girl and boy. They were couples but as you know, boys flirt cheats and everything. Maybe he thought being in a relationship is fun, stepping 2 boats at a time. He fell hard for the another girl. It break th girl's heart but yet, she didnt give up. She want him back at her side like how they were. She did alot for him but, what she received is just another snow storm. Go out with him even when she knew that he's thinking of th other. She watched him go out with other girls, being in a relationship with other girls. She waited. Silly girl, she deserves better -.- That boy is a jerk. But she dont blame him. She knows that he just cant help but falling in love with her. She understands. She forgave.
Both love each other but... he didnt love her whole. His heart dont belongs to her fully. Yet, he's selfish. He wanted her too... When he's in another relationship, he still wanted her around. Silly girl stay arounds as he wished. Comfort him when he was dumped... Help them to get back...
One day, the girl had enough. She decide to leave him. He knew it's the best for her so he let her go. She packed all th things that he had gave her and give it all back to him. It was hard for him too. All these things were their memories. Her giving it all back to him was just too much. He cant take it. He left it there and both of them jus walk away... Strangers.
After a few days, the boy text the girl. He says that he dont this, he dont them to be strangers. He cant take it. This goes the same to the girl. Both them were very sad ever since that day... Both of them knew that they cant make it... Walking past each other like strangers, they just cant take it. That's when they were back like how they were. But not as a couple. Maybe they do behave like a couple but they never will.
One day, the boy asked the girl to be his girlfriend. The girl says no. She rather to be in this way. If they never get tgt, they will never breakup. She prefer to stay at his side like this, be there whenever he needed anyone. Just like this... Maybe this is really better for them... At least she's free.
LALALALA :D
Life's short. Things might not always go as you want. But what can you do? There's always something that you cant do anything wif it. Look at what you have and not what you dont have. Be contented.
I know this girl and boy. They were couples but as you know, boys flirt cheats and everything. Maybe he thought being in a relationship is fun, stepping 2 boats at a time. He fell hard for the another girl. It break th girl's heart but yet, she didnt give up. She want him back at her side like how they were. She did alot for him but, what she received is just another snow storm. Go out with him even when she knew that he's thinking of th other. She watched him go out with other girls, being in a relationship with other girls. She waited. Silly girl, she deserves better -.- That boy is a jerk. But she dont blame him. She knows that he just cant help but falling in love with her. She understands. She forgave.
Both love each other but... he didnt love her whole. His heart dont belongs to her fully. Yet, he's selfish. He wanted her too... When he's in another relationship, he still wanted her around. Silly girl stay arounds as he wished. Comfort him when he was dumped... Help them to get back...
One day, the girl had enough. She decide to leave him. He knew it's the best for her so he let her go. She packed all th things that he had gave her and give it all back to him. It was hard for him too. All these things were their memories. Her giving it all back to him was just too much. He cant take it. He left it there and both of them jus walk away... Strangers.
After a few days, the boy text the girl. He says that he dont this, he dont them to be strangers. He cant take it. This goes the same to the girl. Both them were very sad ever since that day... Both of them knew that they cant make it... Walking past each other like strangers, they just cant take it. That's when they were back like how they were. But not as a couple. Maybe they do behave like a couple but they never will.
One day, the boy asked the girl to be his girlfriend. The girl says no. She rather to be in this way. If they never get tgt, they will never breakup. She prefer to stay at his side like this, be there whenever he needed anyone. Just like this... Maybe this is really better for them... At least she's free.
LALALALA :D
Sunday, October 2, 2011
大傻瓜
Tomorrow is my exams yet i still blogging here. I should be dating with my books now! -.-
Someone is coming to over to play and watch vampire diaries despite the fact that he knew i need to study and VD will distract completely. Man, can you start thinking for the others? If you want to go die, i cant help. If you draggin me down, i'm sorry that i might leave you. Time to do something for myself ^^ Did so much for you yet you're still the old you. What for i did all these for you when you dont even appreciate it? Why not i do it for myself -.-
Heard your family story. I'm sorry that i'm more afraid of you :X Guess that's the reason why you dont always tell me your secrets. I just hope. Hope that you wont be like him when you grow up...
SSSSSSSSSSSTUUUUUUUUDDDDDDDDY Choco<3
Someone is coming to over to play and watch vampire diaries despite the fact that he knew i need to study and VD will distract completely. Man, can you start thinking for the others? If you want to go die, i cant help. If you draggin me down, i'm sorry that i might leave you. Time to do something for myself ^^ Did so much for you yet you're still the old you. What for i did all these for you when you dont even appreciate it? Why not i do it for myself -.-
Heard your family story. I'm sorry that i'm more afraid of you :X Guess that's the reason why you dont always tell me your secrets. I just hope. Hope that you wont be like him when you grow up...
SSSSSSSSSSSTUUUUUUUUDDDDDDDDY Choco<3
Friday, September 30, 2011
The whisper of screams
Busy busy.... EOY starts today and i guess i screwed up all the papers i took today >< Must work extra efforts on the compre !! If not i will be dead meat.
Super distracted during exams >< When can i stop thinking? Bad habit, bad habit. Gahhh Studies is more important than you. You cant even take care of yourself and depending on you? Erm, i dont want to add on your troubles :) I rather I depend on me myself. It's more safer :P
Your exams are in weeks away and you still planning to go play -.- Did you really gave up? Or you need a little push? You told me that you would start studying now AND YET U STILL WANT PLAYY?!?! U even asked me to go play with you. Man, dont you dare to screw my studies out. You can screw me as much as you want but not my studies! 1 day, i'm gonna prove it to you that you would regrett everything that you did to me. Bleh!
I havent start any revision so pratically, i dont think i will do well for EOY. I swear i'm gonna study everything again during the december holidays. I must. If not my sec4 life will be doomed. Yeah, i know. I need to stop using 'doom' and 'practically' and all such of words. I need a better vocab. Like seriously. -.-
Off to study bio!~~ :D
Monday, September 19, 2011
Another normal day
Hey guys! Back to blogging nowdays :D One of the reason is that i'm too lazy to write in my dear diary, Milky<3. I'm so sorry Milky that i had neglected you for so long due to my laziness D; But no matter what you will always keep you at my side! Hehe
Had our F&N practical exam today and it's kind of rush so mrs yap extended it for another haf an hour ^^ If not, i bet a lot of people would hav unable to complete it in time. I think i will fail my practical O.O Everything was a mess D; 1st horror was that we discovered that we dont have enough time to mix 1 by 1 so we need to mix everything together so it messed up all our steps that we had set on our paper. Measuring the ingredient was very time consuming. Here comes the mixing of everything. It was a disaster man... The dough just twirl around the whisk and it was a hard time to get everything out. My apron kena a lot of it D; And so does the surrounding >< After that still need to measure how much for each muffin so wasted alot of time D; In the end, 1 of the muffin over flowed.... Aish... So practically, my practical is doom.
Tomorrow will be my mother tongue prelim yet i dont sense any nervousness. It's seems like it just a small test and i could just fail it :X Gahhh! From now on must treat every test and exam seriously! Yeah, as if i would... -.-! Haix!
Gonna be in the same room, same floor, under the same lights and fans and taking the same paper with him tomorrow. Hope i wont get too crazy over him and forget about my paper >< Just hope that i will sit somewhere infront of him so that i wont able to see him. If i'm able to see him, i dont think i can concentrate on my paper le -.- Forget it mann. he's not gonna care :P GOOOOOOOODLUCK FOR ME ! :D
Off to homeowork and studies! <3
Had our F&N practical exam today and it's kind of rush so mrs yap extended it for another haf an hour ^^ If not, i bet a lot of people would hav unable to complete it in time. I think i will fail my practical O.O Everything was a mess D; 1st horror was that we discovered that we dont have enough time to mix 1 by 1 so we need to mix everything together so it messed up all our steps that we had set on our paper. Measuring the ingredient was very time consuming. Here comes the mixing of everything. It was a disaster man... The dough just twirl around the whisk and it was a hard time to get everything out. My apron kena a lot of it D; And so does the surrounding >< After that still need to measure how much for each muffin so wasted alot of time D; In the end, 1 of the muffin over flowed.... Aish... So practically, my practical is doom.
Tomorrow will be my mother tongue prelim yet i dont sense any nervousness. It's seems like it just a small test and i could just fail it :X Gahhh! From now on must treat every test and exam seriously! Yeah, as if i would... -.-! Haix!
Gonna be in the same room, same floor, under the same lights and fans and taking the same paper with him tomorrow. Hope i wont get too crazy over him and forget about my paper >< Just hope that i will sit somewhere infront of him so that i wont able to see him. If i'm able to see him, i dont think i can concentrate on my paper le -.- Forget it mann. he's not gonna care :P GOOOOOOOODLUCK FOR ME ! :D
Off to homeowork and studies! <3
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Another switch
I should be sleeping at this hour but i'm here blogging. I was suppose to burnt some midnight oil but i wasnt really in a mood so here i am ^^
Read a few blogs and some were really very interesting and fascinating. There's a blog that kept you scrolling down for more. One of them was kind of unexpected. From what i know about that person, he wasnt really nice when i heard from someone and he turned out to be a total opposite person from what i knew. He was really great and you can gain alot from his blog. It's about life lessons and also his awesome little world. Those were awfully true and he could present it in a very... erm... daily life way? As in you can learn it from small little things that you always come across in life. It was very meaningful, of course. Guess i'm gonna be a regular visitor of that blog ^^
Gotta start work man... Stop procastinating!
Read a few blogs and some were really very interesting and fascinating. There's a blog that kept you scrolling down for more. One of them was kind of unexpected. From what i know about that person, he wasnt really nice when i heard from someone and he turned out to be a total opposite person from what i knew. He was really great and you can gain alot from his blog. It's about life lessons and also his awesome little world. Those were awfully true and he could present it in a very... erm... daily life way? As in you can learn it from small little things that you always come across in life. It was very meaningful, of course. Guess i'm gonna be a regular visitor of that blog ^^
Gotta start work man... Stop procastinating!
Monday, September 12, 2011
Get over
So much had happened lately that i cant even catch up. Mostly, bad things. Yeah. That's when people start to be active on facebook or twitter or wad, i think. They wanted to release their anger, sorrow and their feelings. They might just want to hint to that someone that they still cares, they regrett, they still loves them. Facebook and Twitter seems like is becoming a small diary to everyone. A place to pour their feelings. It's not that they want the whole world to know how sad they felt and how pathetic they are but to let the others know, to understand about them. So that no one will go mess with them at the wrong time. But sometimes, i really dont understand why they want to tell the whole world how they feel. Maybe it's just someone who's their whole world. And mine just crashed lately. How sad?
Monday, June 20, 2011
Monkey
It's a long time since i got this crazy about books. 9hours 2 books. How nice?? :D Read Airhead by Meg Cabot and Snap by Carol Snow. Both books are very amazing and SNAP's ending is really SWEET ;3 How i wish i got someone like Duncan/Charles. Yeah, it wont happen in real life coz you dont get ppl to pop ups in ur pic out of nowhere. At least i would be in the shoes of that lucky girl :) Always, better than nothing.
Saturday NDP training was a CR @ Floating plaform. Of course we will go to F1 pit to eat and all this. This time we were at the ground floor so basically, we're surviving on fans. OF COURSE, some people would move the fan that will only blow them and poor us, has to fan ourselves -.- Soooo... there were at lot of ppl there but not as much compare to YOG AND AND AND!! I SAW ERIC !! I rmb he was wearing his pink shirt and pants O.O I bet he wont recognise me so i didnt wave at him or smile at him. I know i would look like an idiot -.- THEY CHANGE THE FLOATING PLATFORM. So i now noe that we can change the stage o.o They kind of build another layer of stage on top? and so the stairs are gone and the below was kind of empty so there was a bigger backstage compared to YOG. ANYWAYYY IT WAS FUNNN !! :D
Saturday NDP training was a CR @ Floating plaform. Of course we will go to F1 pit to eat and all this. This time we were at the ground floor so basically, we're surviving on fans. OF COURSE, some people would move the fan that will only blow them and poor us, has to fan ourselves -.- Soooo... there were at lot of ppl there but not as much compare to YOG AND AND AND!! I SAW ERIC !! I rmb he was wearing his pink shirt and pants O.O I bet he wont recognise me so i didnt wave at him or smile at him. I know i would look like an idiot -.- THEY CHANGE THE FLOATING PLATFORM. So i now noe that we can change the stage o.o They kind of build another layer of stage on top? and so the stairs are gone and the below was kind of empty so there was a bigger backstage compared to YOG. ANYWAYYY IT WAS FUNNN !! :D
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