Hey people ! its such a long time and i bet no one would be reading this blog now but I dont care :D
Over this holiday, I met Clean monster and he emphasized on my appearance. Yes, he's right. I need a complete change of wardrobe before school starts. People judge you by appearance, for the 1st impression. If your appearance doesnt appeals to them, no way they gonna start a conversation with you. People look at you 1st, the way you dress, your body language, expressions... That's what basically form up the 1st impression right? If you pass it, you guys can become friends :D I'm not sure whether I'm right or it just doesnt applies to everyone. But at least that something i can start with right??
I want to be a very sociable person. I dont want to be the person who sits at the corner, minding their own business, dreaming of their own little fantasy. I dont want to stay in my own world anymore, I want to enter other people's world too and maybe have some fun. Me too, want people to come and join my world. But i dont know how. I dont really know how to make friends. My bestfriends are usually the outcasted people in the class, LiJing and Anna. Not much people likes them, i think... But well, now i have to meet a whole new set of people in Poly now but i just dont know how to get along with them, as if i already know who they are already... huh.Yes, i can be friendly at the start but i dont know how to continue after that. I dont know how to talk. I dont know what to talk. I dont know how to joke around. I dont know a lot of things.
SO HERE COME BAOYUDI :D a small little introduction about him! I knew him through shopnsave. It was during the CNY period when SNS need extra people to help out with the CNY stocks. My duty was to watch over the abalones in the morning and baoyudi was to watch them in the night :) so it was quite an interesting encounter i suppose haha He's quite a smart person and talented with musical instruments. I like him. He's someone i wanted to be. Haha
I'm super glad that he came in to my life. He taught me a lot of things to. He's further explaining stuff of what Clean Monster taught me. Now i know why i dont know how to communicate with people is because i'm lack of knowledge. Since you and that person doesnt have a common topic to talk about nor a common interest, there's nothing that can be shared. Even there's no common topic, well, at least you're good at something and that you can talk about for a long time. Sharing your knowledge with other people and they will do that the same to you. Isnt this how you expand ur knowledge? Through people... Its better than the net and videos for me.... :/ And then further emphasis on my appearance that I have to start wearing something more girlish? Something to to show off (is that the right word?) that i got, those curves and all... Other than just baggy t-shirts, maybe something nicer tight fitting... You have to look good in order to get attention right? Then people will think 'oh hey she looks nice. I wonder where she bought her clothes... Maybe i shall ask her! ' and all these stuff. I mean, that's a way to start a conversation right? :D
Gosh. I'm moving slow. but i'm not giving up. To the person i want to be !!
